lama gak kitorang kawan, mesej2. One night, I had fever, waktu tu kat hostel.. I was so bored sangat2 and can't sleep. Waktu tu dah almost 1.00am. Jenguk2 la handphone. Teringat nama Mr.AA ni. Dah busan sangat kan.. So I hanta la mesej kat dia, bagitau dia yang I tengah bosan, takde keja and demam. He asked me to take med and sleep. Masalahnya, I can't sleep and tak suka makan ubat. He mad at me! huhuhuh!! hhahhaha!! But then it shows that he is caring... heheheheh... bla bla and bla...... dari hari tu memang kerap sesangatla mesej ngan dia. Kalau bz jer tak mesej. Yang I bekenan kat dia ni, he is very understanding, baik ngan parents, siblings, hormat orang tua dan pandai. Physically, he is perfect. Dah bekenan sangat, one day I confess la kat dia, then kitorang couple. Happy!! Waktu tu awal sem2.. Few months pastu, clash. Tak ingat plak nape. tapi still contact. Waktu cuti sem 2, kitorang couple balik..Tak ingat gak camne leh couple balik. Dah sayang kan, so I tak kesah sangat la and tak banyak tanya. Since kenal dia, to me, he is perfect. He got everything yang I nak. Dah bahagia waktu sem 3 tu, one day,I called him, text him tp takde jawab. I called F, F cakap dia klua. Next day he text me and told me that he can't stand this relationship. I was damn angry, upset, disapponted and sad at the same time. But then, what can I do? I just carry on with my own life. Few weeks later, when I was Facebook-ing, a girl sent me a message and said sorry, regarding Mr.AA. I told her, was an old story, I dun mind. It was Mr.AA's fault. I cool je waktu tu....
Masih dalam sem 3 gak... he came back to me!! As usual, I tak banyak tanya. Well actually, I was still hoping for him. huhuhu..... lama gak kitorang dalam keadaan kawan yang rapat. Especially waktu raya, memang 24/7 la mesej.Dahtu ada la terputus contact kejap. Sebab cuti raya dah abis kan, banyak keja dah. Mesek tu ada, tapi tak kerap. Kalau tak pun, on the phone. Best la gak waktu camtu. But yet, I can't accept others to be my lover. Masih gak nak kat dia. Memang takde prasaan kat orang lain. Dia plak salu tanya nape tak nak cari orang lain, and I told him over and over again, saya tunggu awak. Dia tak cakap apa2 tapi kitorang memang masih kawan yang rapat. Memang bahagia la waktu tu sebab dia ada walaupun tak couple.
Dah abis sem 3, masok sem 4 plak..... Waktu ni la happy gila yang amat, yang siot, tahap gaban la. Mr.AA waktu awal sem 4 ni, memang dia plak yang macam in love ngan I.. Boleh kata tiap malam la call, tiap hari mesej. Kalau I tak balas mesej, he will call me and asked me knapa tak balas.Suka sangat2 waktu tu...hehhehhhehehe... memang high sesangat. Tapi, ada one week, dia bz, bila saya plak yang nak cari dia, boleh plak dia marah. I told him, kalau one day at least one text would enough to show me that yang dia ingat kat I. U know what he replied? "takkan saya kena ingatkan awak jer. banyak lagi benda lebih penting." when i read that, I feel like wanna throw my hp tapi masih sabar gak. I understand that he was sooooo bz but does he really have to say that crap? Lepas tu, I tak mesej dia, memang rasa kecik hati sangat2! Memang perasaan kat dia dah kurang.
Pastu, da sedar ckit, I tried to move on. I ada crush kat this one guy. MAA gak. My new Mr.AA. I bising2 la kat facebook sal my new Mr.AA ni. u know what, d old Mr.AA marah2, and I gadoh ngan dia. Pastu diam la few days. All of sudden, beberapa hari lepas tu, dia plak cari I balik. Waktu tu memang dia macam menyesal. Tapi I takda ungkit sal apa yang dia dah gtau. H e told me that, I am the only girl yang tahan dengan dia, sanggup tunggu dia. So he felt so guilty for everything he had done to me. Dia nak tebus balik kesalahan dia. And the he became sooo caring, baik sangat, concern sangat. Tapi, my heart dah tak brapa sangat dah kat dia. One day, he asked me to call him xxx (panggilan manja). I ikut je. Tp I ada tanya, kita ni couple ke? "saya dah suruh awak panggil saya xxx, takkan tak tau lagi?" he replied. So I assume couple la. selama seminggu tu memang bahagia sangat2. Tapi actually I memang tak yakin langsung sal relationship ni. Tapi memang salu dia cakap, rasa salah sangat2 and nak tebus balik. memang tiap malam kitorang on the phone. Fyi, I tak suka on the phone, but when it comes to Mr.AA, I never care bout that. For him, I sanggup change myself so that I look perfect to him. We were so happy that time. Tapi keyakinan bout him, memang tak kuat. I trust him, tp tak yakin. my love towards him that time not that strong as I felt before. tapi masih gak nak couple.. Happy la sangat2 till one evening........
I called him langsongggg takda jawab. I text him langsoooongg tak balas. I called F, and he told me that Mr.AA tengah tido. OK, fine. He didn't inform me. Well at least, bagitau la tido, letih. One message wud enuff. I faham. d next day, takda gak message. Malam tu, I anta message dulu, tp tak bejawab gak. Lama tunggu, baru ada balas. He told me, dia tengah main online game. Stress katanya.... Ok, takpe, main la. Tapi malam tu actually I really need him. I felt so lonely, so sad. Tapi dia macam memang tak kesah sangat. I perli, dia tak faham. He carry on with d game. Sampai kol 11pm tunggu dia mesej balik sebab dia kata memang anta mesej kalau tak main. Tunggu punya tunggu, u know apa dia mesej, "sebenarnya saya takda mood nak mesej". sapa tak sakit hati?? I was so down, marah gila, sedih gila, and nangis dengan teruk malam tu. sampai I anta mesej kat dia "i can't carry on, kita kawan je macam dulu". dia langsong tak balas apa2 dari I.
the next day, I anta mesej kat dia merayu pulak. dia memang tak nak. Dia kata, dah benci kat saya dah. dia rasa dia dipermainkan, suka2 kena tolak, suka2 kena trima.. abis tu, lama ni dia tak mainkan saya? so what say u?
-NI PENGHABISAN LOVE STORY DENGAN THE OLD MR.AA-
pas ni... bout my new MR.AA
ni la akibatnya percaya sangat cinta siber... moving on now! ;)
ReplyDeletehaha sabar jan,sabar..biala org kdakya.. sik worth ktk sedeh jan. :)
ReplyDeleteyala... moviing on now. dun worry. hepi juak nektok.
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