yoyo oooo la...:)

yesterday.. was a disaster. our presentation was like *******.... sabo je la. and d worst part is, the panels boleh detect plak there's no teamwork. nice one, but not me ya. I'm d one who had sacrifice my time, my health for this fucking menyusahkan subject.
ok2... no more complaint. x boleh komplen byk sgt eh... Ada hikmah d sebalik nya.
Frens, I'm gonna change my blog ler... x mok pake email tok agik. mok pake emel baru... mok start new life cuz it's the new Jan now. heheheheh.....

Feel the heat!

Aaaaaaaaaaarrrgggghhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Whoa..........!! Assignments, Quizzes, Test, ETR presentation... Final exam will be in April. I wanna be in Dean List again!!! I will try my best!! I will!  Maybe it's not a promise, but I'll ensure that it will happen.. C'mon stress, I dare U! I'm not afraid of U! I'm gonna defeat U! Allah will always help me!

geng pandai la sangat!

huh!! Awal2 dah molah aku xda mood. Tok aku klaka sal miak ctok, which are classmates ku pun. that's y aku make bhs ctok jak. Dalam kelas, da la cdak segroup tok. Nang pande la juak. Pande sebab rajin blaja. Cheh!! Ok la, aku ngakuk tak org pande. Bukan nak muji dirik la. Aku mun nak compare ngan tak orang eh, sama juak markah kita nak? ktak org blaja. aku ne da. so SAPA PANDE AGIK?? ktk orang mun x molah aku gya, aku xkan rasa macam tok x. ktk org xkan selalu nya betol biarpun tak orang "PANDE GILAK". Eh,  kawan aku rami gik la.. Teramat jaoh lebeh pande dari tak orang. Xda daknya loba macam tak orang ya. Aku ngakuk, aku salu betanyak sapa dapat markah highest lam kelas, and then aku dengki. Tapi aku xla sampe kedak kitak orang. Lu nak madah dirik sik da belaja. Padah jak x paham sia bah. Lewat juak aku nang x boleh pande dari tak orang. heyyy, aku kenak la prange tak orang. Ktk orang ya nerd tauk x?? NERDDD!! Especially U girl! D one yg nama nya start ngan S. X perlu kau nak berhal gya gilak bah. si laki plak, nama start ngan M. kau melayan aku ekot mood kau jak.

Aku madah ngan E ( a girl dalam group ya juak), yesterday. aku tanyak pelu polah baru ka pa slide ya. nya madah la polah sama. ok, la... nya dah madah molah sama ritok. pagi tek, klas cancel, so aku tyk la M nak polah pa pastok. Nya pun juak madah polah PAD ya tek, slide ya. aku padah la ku ambik barang lam keta mbak ke bilit lok. dah ya ku agak ktk org. n bla bla bla... angkut la barang tek. aku malas nk ngembak laptop sbb hari2 ngembak. p ku da mbak fail k subjek ya tek. datang kat u floor tek eh, dak nya molah ETR. Aku tek nang bege orang bodo jak sia. maka da 3 laptop kat sia. pa salah make cgek laptop polah slide nak? gikpun aku da info kat file bah. gerammmm!!!! M nang bege pa la. cam manas da juak upanya. masalah nya aku mati2 ingat kmk orang polah sama. last2 nya nyuruh aku ngn kwn ku sorg ya molah. Info tak org nak kat slide lamak ya, mun agik stakat wikipedia, aku boleh sebut gya jak la. xpelu nk include lam slide. Nak ne nyuroh tak orang brubah gilak tok? all this while kita happy eh blaja sama2. aku da molah salah ka? setauk aku, aku ok jak ngn smua orang lam kelas. Rum bulak nya aku tauk la pa konflik dalaman lam kelas kita ya. ktk orang jak xtauk. jangan nak loba gilak.

semadi eh aku tok.. bukan jenis pemarah depan2. aku diam jak. p jangan terasa bila ku nyindir jak dah la. aku trimak tak orang as a group of people yang pande lam kelas mek orang. tapi jangan dah pande ya, lu nk loba kedirik, xpat nak trimak kenyataan. Mun aku belaja kdak tak orang juak ka, x nya bulak aku 4flat every sem. Cuma aku x kdak ktk org. OK? lega dah nyawa tok... :)

it was him.. :(

Now I wanna share my love story.. huhu.... sedih la gak. I called him Mr.AA. The first A is his name, and another A is his dad's. We have known each other since I was in part 1 in UiTM, tapi kat hujung sem when I should sutdy thoroughly for my final exam. Biasalakan, waktu exam mst stress sesangat. Sebab tu la main game online. Kenal la budak nama F ni. Budak F ni la kenal kan kitorang. My Mr.AA ni asal Kedah. He just broke up with her ex masa tu. Kawan dia, F tu tak nak la tengok dia sedih2, so he introduced me kat Mr.AA. Happy la sangat2 time tu sebab I pun single gak. hehehe.....

lama gak kitorang kawan, mesej2. One night, I had fever, waktu tu kat hostel.. I was so bored sangat2 and can't sleep. Waktu tu dah almost 1.00am. Jenguk2 la handphone. Teringat nama Mr.AA ni. Dah busan sangat kan.. So I hanta la mesej kat dia, bagitau dia yang I tengah bosan, takde keja and demam. He asked me to take med and sleep. Masalahnya, I can't sleep and tak suka makan ubat. He mad at me! huhuhuh!! hhahhaha!! But then it shows that he is caring... heheheheh... bla bla and bla...... dari hari tu memang kerap sesangatla mesej ngan dia. Kalau bz jer tak mesej. Yang I bekenan kat dia ni, he is very understanding, baik ngan parents, siblings, hormat orang tua dan pandai. Physically, he is perfect. Dah bekenan sangat, one day I confess la kat dia, then kitorang couple. Happy!! Waktu tu awal sem2.. Few months pastu, clash. Tak ingat plak nape. tapi still contact. Waktu cuti sem 2, kitorang couple balik..Tak ingat gak camne leh couple balik. Dah sayang kan, so I tak kesah sangat la and tak banyak tanya. Since kenal dia, to me, he is perfect. He got everything yang I nak. Dah bahagia waktu sem 3 tu, one day,I called him, text him tp takde jawab.  I called F, F cakap dia klua. Next day he text me and told me that he can't stand this relationship. I was damn angry, upset, disapponted and sad at the same time. But then, what can I do? I just carry on with my own life. Few weeks later, when I was Facebook-ing, a girl sent me a message and said sorry, regarding Mr.AA. I told her, was an old story, I dun mind. It was Mr.AA's fault. I cool je waktu tu....

Masih dalam sem 3 gak... he came back to me!! As usual, I tak banyak tanya. Well actually, I was still hoping for him. huhuhu..... lama gak kitorang dalam keadaan kawan yang rapat. Especially waktu raya, memang 24/7 la mesej.Dahtu ada la terputus contact kejap. Sebab cuti raya dah abis kan, banyak keja dah. Mesek tu ada, tapi tak kerap. Kalau tak pun, on the phone. Best la gak waktu camtu. But yet, I can't accept others to be my lover. Masih gak nak kat dia. Memang takde prasaan kat orang lain. Dia plak salu tanya nape tak nak cari orang lain, and I told him over and over again, saya tunggu awak. Dia tak cakap apa2 tapi kitorang memang masih kawan yang rapat. Memang bahagia la waktu tu sebab dia ada walaupun tak couple.

Dah abis sem 3, masok sem 4 plak..... Waktu ni la happy gila yang amat, yang siot, tahap gaban la. Mr.AA waktu awal sem 4 ni, memang dia plak yang macam in love ngan I.. Boleh kata tiap malam la call, tiap hari mesej. Kalau I tak balas mesej, he will call me and asked me knapa tak balas.Suka sangat2 waktu tu...hehhehhhehehe... memang high sesangat. Tapi, ada one week, dia bz, bila saya plak yang nak cari dia, boleh plak dia marah. I told him, kalau one day at least one text would enough to show me that yang dia ingat kat I. U know what he replied? "takkan saya kena ingatkan awak jer. banyak lagi benda lebih penting." when i read that, I feel like wanna throw my hp tapi masih sabar gak. I understand that he was sooooo bz but does he really have to say that crap? Lepas tu, I tak mesej dia, memang rasa kecik hati sangat2! Memang perasaan kat dia dah kurang. 

Pastu, da sedar ckit, I tried to move on. I ada crush kat this one guy. MAA gak. My new Mr.AA. I bising2 la kat facebook sal my new Mr.AA ni. u know what, d old Mr.AA marah2, and I gadoh ngan dia. Pastu diam la few days. All of sudden, beberapa hari lepas tu, dia plak cari I balik. Waktu tu memang dia macam menyesal. Tapi I takda ungkit sal apa yang dia dah gtau. H e told me that, I am the only girl yang tahan dengan dia, sanggup tunggu dia. So he felt so guilty for everything he had done to me. Dia nak tebus balik kesalahan dia. And the he became sooo caring, baik sangat, concern sangat. Tapi, my heart dah tak brapa sangat dah kat dia. One day, he asked me to call him xxx (panggilan manja). I ikut je. Tp I ada tanya, kita ni couple ke? "saya dah suruh awak panggil saya xxx, takkan tak tau lagi?" he replied. So I assume couple la. selama seminggu tu memang bahagia sangat2. Tapi actually I memang tak yakin langsung sal relationship ni. Tapi memang salu dia cakap, rasa salah sangat2 and nak tebus balik. memang tiap malam kitorang on the phone. Fyi, I tak suka on the phone, but when it comes to Mr.AA, I never care bout that. For him, I sanggup change myself so that I look perfect to him. We were so happy that time. Tapi keyakinan bout him, memang tak kuat. I trust him, tp tak yakin. my love towards him that time not that strong as I felt before. tapi masih gak nak couple.. Happy la sangat2 till one evening........

I called him langsongggg takda jawab. I text him langsoooongg tak balas. I called F, and he told me that Mr.AA tengah tido. OK, fine. He didn't inform me. Well at least, bagitau la tido, letih. One message wud enuff. I faham. d next day, takda gak message. Malam tu, I anta message dulu, tp tak bejawab gak. Lama tunggu, baru ada balas. He told me, dia tengah main online game. Stress katanya.... Ok, takpe, main la. Tapi malam tu actually I really need him. I felt so lonely, so sad. Tapi dia macam memang tak kesah sangat. I perli, dia tak faham. He carry on with d game. Sampai kol 11pm tunggu dia mesej balik sebab dia kata memang anta mesej kalau tak main. Tunggu punya tunggu, u know apa dia mesej, "sebenarnya saya takda mood nak mesej". sapa tak sakit hati?? I was so down, marah gila, sedih gila, and nangis dengan teruk malam tu. sampai I anta mesej kat dia "i can't carry on, kita kawan je macam dulu". dia langsong tak balas apa2 dari I. 

the next day, I anta mesej kat dia merayu pulak. dia memang tak nak. Dia kata, dah benci kat saya dah. dia rasa dia dipermainkan, suka2 kena tolak, suka2 kena trima.. abis tu, lama ni dia tak mainkan saya? so what say u?

                       -NI PENGHABISAN LOVE STORY DENGAN THE OLD MR.AA-

pas ni... bout my new MR.AA

                                 

ish....!

Since last year, we heard lots of news regarding baby dumping. I was and I'm wondering how do they feel when they are doing that crime, leaving the baby alone. Kesian la baby yang kena tinggal, dalam keadaan lapar, menangis, sorang2. Mana diorang letak rasa keibuan, keperimanusiaan? Dah cukup la dengan dosa berzina, ditambah lagi dengan dosa membunuh. Mungkin ni macam crita dah lapuk but there are still news bout this matter. kalau yer pun tak nak baby tu, bagi la kat orang, atau pun leave the baby kat tempat yang selamat. Ni tak, ada yang kena FLUSHED, BUANG, TEPI SUNGAI, CAMPAK TEPI JALAN, TEMPAT BUANG SAMPAH dan  DALAM TONG SAMPAH! 
anak tu kan amanah Allah S.W.T. Membuang anak tu, kira dah pecah amanah, tak jujur. I understand that they dumped the baby because they are afraid to be mad by their family, and being insulted by others or society for comitting zina. Yes, zina is a big sin. But then, once you comitted that, memang akan ada rasa menyesal, BUT you must remember, anything happens in this world for reasons. Saya tabik la to  those yang beranak luar nikah, tapi tak buang anak tu. It indicates that YOU ARE STRONG!! I know maybe some people think that I rasa bagus.. I love babies.... That's why when it comes to this issue, I'm gonna be soooooo emotional! Ada orang kata, tu la kalau tak nak kantoi, guna helmet. Why don't we get back to the basic? Kalau tak nak jadi benda macam ni, jangan la buat zina. Awal2 lagi agama dah tegah zina. And another thing is, pada saya, ada langkah2 yang diambil to overcome this issue tak munasabah. Contohnya, bagi kondom free.. Sememangnya pembuangan bayi boleh la berkurangan kot.. Tapi masalah zina plak?? What say you? Menjadi2 kot... Tak bagi Kocndom free pun memang dah banyak kes ni.  Since I'm a student, saya masih belum dapat buat apa2 skarang ni. Kalau bagi nasihat ckit2 camni boleh la.. I hope that one day, I'm d one who's gonna be the solver for this problem. Pendek kata la kat sini kan, WHATEVER SINS THAT U HAVE COMMITTED, THAT HAPPENS FOR REASONS. Jangan la ambik tindakan yang tak munasabah lagi lepas tu... okkaaayy! rasanya sampai sini kot. All in all, BABIES ARE CUTE! heheheheh......